Embracing Uncertainty with Him

Today started out being a great day. I woke up refreshed after a good nights sleep, got dressed and walked 1.7 miles from my home to the 7 a.m service at Elim Christian Fellowship. The service was awesome and I left determined to "Get My Feet Wet", which is what my Pastor spoke about. I opted out of the 2 mile walk home and decided instead to take the bus. It had warmed up significantly between 6 a.m and 9 a.m and all I wanted to do was to get home and wash the humidity off of me. I did just that and before I knew it I laid across my bed and fell fast asleep.

I didn't realize how tired I was until I woke up after 12:30 p.m. I called my cousin to wish her Happy Birthday and headed a half a mile up the street to have some much desired soul food from Je Ne Sais Quoi Restaurant. Then after a few hours I made my way back home full, hot and sweaty (again), and ready for my third shower of the day. After speaking to a few friends and family members I found myself in silence and that's when it hit. I became bombarded with thoughts of everything from court tomorrow for eviction proceedings...(I'm the tenant), the missions trip to Jamaica and the things I still need before Friday including the passport ( though I believe it will arrive by Wednesday). I also am dealing with some very personal and serious situations concerning someone very dear to me, yet all I can do is to pray for God's intervention.

My heart began to grow heavy as my own emotions and the condemning thoughts of the enemy beat upon me like a Tsunami. I felt defeated and I had no one to turn to, talk to or even embrace. I was alone and all I could do is go into my room and pray. As I knelt down I felt like Jesus in the garden of Gethsemane after he walked away from his friends thinking they were in heavy intercession on his behalf. Instead they were heavily asleep. I felt the Lord leading me to create a prayer line and I invited many of my friends to join me in about 30 minutes to pray for me, but no one joined. I was discouraged until I heard these words... And David encouraged himself in the Lord. I knew then that I was going to face many days from this point that will require me to learn to lift myself up out of levels of discouragement.

As I prayed I heard the Spirit say... "Put on the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness." I lifted myself out of defeat, despair, and discouragement by lifting God up above my needs, circumstances and concerns. When I began to praise him He began to silence the thoughts and to rebuke the enemies jeers at me. In less that 20 minutes I was ready to get to work on my projects and to continue the race.

I have settled it in my heart that though I don't have the power to change tomorrow's verdict, but I do have the power to embrace today's promise in Hebrews 13:5-6 (AMP), a promise that will help me to embrace uncertainty not alone, but with Him.

Let your character [your moral essence, your inner nature] be free from the love of money [shun greed—be financially ethical], being content with what you have; for He has said,

“I will never [under any circumstances] desert you [nor give you up nor leave you without support, nor will I in any degree leave you helpless], nor will I forsake or let you down or relax My hold on you [assuredly not]!”

So we take comfort and are encouraged and confidently say, “The Lord is my Helper [in time of need], I will not be afraid. What will man do to me?”